I am Jealous of You

(photo credit: www.siasat.pk)

Cheryl Sleboda of Muppin.com wrote an article last month on her blog about quilting jealousy. I know I have been the green-eyes monster on many occasions. I can publicly pretend all I want that the work of others doesn't effect me. I could sit on my high horse and blab on about how self-righteously above jealously I am. But the truth is, I am human, so it goes without saying that I will (and should) experience normal human emotions. Jealously is a normal human emotion.

Those show-stopping quilts and acceptance letters into quilt shows. Teaching gigs, book deals and conventions. Fabric companies sending free bundles of fabric and patterns being published in major quilt magazines. Social media is filled with quilters toting their accomplishments. And as proud as I am for their individual success, I wish so desperately that their success was mine.

We all find ourselves at times envious of what others have or what others have created for themselves. That is emotion is completely natural. It is what we do with that feeling that is the real concern.

I have seen people throw in the towel and give up because they saw someone excel at something and just didn't think they could ever come close to making something that good. They give up on their dreams because they don't think they are smart enough or as talent enough as the person/people they admire. Or they think they have to win the lottery to ever have that lifestyle they see others have.

I was this way when I first started quilting. In my own little bubble I would quilt in the privacy of my little bedroom. I sewed what I saw in my mind made quilts the way I wanted to make them. I made things that pleased me. I was happy and content. But then I ventured out of my happy bubble to meet other quilters and see the works of others. It was during a quilt, sewing and craft show in Phoenix, Arizona that my happy bubble popped. I saw quilts that looked nothing like mine. But instead of being inspired, I was disappointed. My construction was different, my fabrics were not 100% cotton and my designs were nothing like what was being made. Frankly my work looked like a pile of preschool shit next to the quilts I was seeing. Even when I tried to describe and show my quilts to others I just got my work ripped apart. I was told my quilts weren't even quilts. They were more like empty duvet covers or a bunch of stitched up rags.

So I did what I thought at the time was the best course of action. I put away all my quilts and went on with my life.  It would be ten years before I found my way back to quilting again.

It took life changing events for me to gain the greatest insight in my life. I learned that I had wasted so much of my time being jealous over the work of others and comparing myself to them. Two quotes have rang true in helping me to get back on the path I'm suppose to be on and not get distracted by envy and comparison-

Mother Teresa:
"It was never between you and them. It was always between you and God." (paraphrased)

Montgomery Gentry:
"You do your thing, I'll do mine."

Do I still get jealous when other quilters get awards and opportunities that I don't have? Yes. Am I envious at times of the quilts and quilting achievements of others? Yup. But now I don't let it stop me. I pause, acknowledge the emotion and then I remember that I am not in competition with these quilters. My work is in service to God. As long as God is happy with what I am doing, I'm happy.

Spring Clean Your Studio Blog Hop: Stitches of Joi

I discovered Cheryl Sleboda (aka Muppin) on Instagram earlier this year. It was her sewing skull that caught my attention. (I have a thing for cool looking skulls.) When I saw that she was looking for some folks to join her in blog hop, I jumped at the chance. Little did I realize at the time that this blog hop meant that I would actually need to clean you studio.

Spring Clean Your Studio Blog Hop

For those of you who don't know, my little studio is nestled inside the guest bedroom. In a perfect world, I do all my sewing in there and I always remember to put everything away at the end of the day. This way, when guest arrive, it still looks clean, neat and ready for company.

The reality is that the room becomes a catch-all for everything. Over the last few months, stuff has gotten dumped into the room on a regular bases. When guest do come over, all the crap gets stuffed into boxes and hid in the garage. When guest leave it all comes back into the room.

I've gotten pretty tired of this back and fourth dumping and decided it was high time I actually clean my work space.

Here is what should be a well organized work table. Believe it or not, there is actually a cutting mat and two rotary cutters under all this mess.

When not in use, the guest bed acts as my design board. Right now in this picture its hard to even tell their's a bed there. I don't even know where half of this stuff came from. I swear stuff multiplies when I'm asleep. 

It took a couple of days of locking myself in the room and only coming out for bathroom breaks and to refill my green tea in order to get the place looking decent. 

Now this is what a proper work desk should look like. See, I told you there was a mat and rotary cutters under all that junk. Look, there were even some rulers under there too! The little bird in the corner is my sewing needle holder. I seriously thought I had lost him. But nope, he was just buried alive.

And here is the guest bed / design board. All decorated with a quilt I'm currently working on, with fabric for another quilt waiting in the corner.

It was a cleaning that was well overdue. Next on my list to tackle are all my little scrap pieces. I need to find a good way to organize them for quick find and use. Anyone out there got any good suggestions?

With all that cleaning, I actually found space in the room to lay down my new little rug I purchased recently. I think every sewing/craft room should have a skull somewhere in it. Don't you?

Thank you Cheryl for giving me a good excuse to clean up my studio!

Please check out the other cool cats on the list and see how they cleaned up their studios too.

May 7 Kathy Matthews http://www.chicagonow.com/quilting-sewing-creating/ May 8 Misty Cole Http://www.dailydesignwall.blogspot.com May 9 Heather Kinion http://heatherkinion.com/ May 10 Jessica Darling http://jessicakdarling.com/ May 11 Lisa Blevis Filion http://upstatelisa.blogspot.com/ May 12 Peta Minerof-Bartos http://www.thenotsewguiltyquilter.blogspot.com/ May 13 Mandy Leins http://mandalei.com/ May 14 Amalia Teresa Parra Morusiewicz http://funfromatoz.com/ May 15 Sam Hunter http://huntersdesignstudio.com/ May 16 Debby Ritenbaugh Brown http://higheredhands.blogspot.com/ May 17 Debbie Kleve Berkebile http://www.mountaintrailquilttreasure.blogspot.com/ May 18 Michelle Mattingly http://stitchesofjoi.blogspot.com/ May 19 Cheryl Sleboda http://blog.muppin.com